[ a shiver ripples down his skin, from the top of his head jolting down his spine, past his chest, to his crotch and legs, the terrible temptation of her voice penetrating him. when he lost his sight he worked hard to train his other senses to let him function. the force lets him see, but improved hearing is the result of learning what to focus on - in the environment and in someone's voice.
so he hears her want, her needs, and he's ready to throw himself before her and afraid of doing so. afraid to let someone in this close, knowing once she steps through he would never have it in him to push her out. what if something goes wrong? not in the moment, nothing is wrong now, but what if later. a day, a week, a month - he doesn't want to disappoint anyone and knows it is inevitable.
he snaps back when her nails graze into his skin, out of the trap made in his thoughts, and opens his eyes. he will never see her but she is here, wanting him, and not just tonight. kanan breathes out, lifts up his hand from her chest so that he may cup her face with a warm hand. ]
Are you ready, or should I prepare you?
[ he takes a moment to slowly adjust them together, pushing back to sit a little further up the mattress and bumping his ankles into the post. thinking too much, even if it's in his nature, is distracting him. he wants her too and he will focus on that in the now. ]
⟪ she leans into his touch, more instinct than any other thing. he was neither stone nor iron, he held warmth of his own making and he had not broken under the duress of his life, even as it had done its very darkest and worst. or maybe he had been broken – how is she to know? maybe he had performed the miracle of his own healing.
all she knows lies in this moment, and she will not think beyond it. ⟫
I am ready. ⟪ very, very much so, and he can feel just how ready as she adjusts astride him, takes his prick in one hand to guide him to her entrance. as if by way of explanation, if it can be called an explanation with how husky her voice gets, how plain she puts her truth – ⟫ There is not a thing done betweens us here that has not mounted my own pleasure just as it did yours.
⟪ and with that, she begins to take him inside, slow, to offer him, too, time to adjust to the sensation. much as she is aching for him in this moment, she does want to savour it all. ⟫
[ a slow, heavy breath, draws into his lungs through his nose as she pushes down on him, eyes shutting. he holds it for five seconds, giving her the time to settle, then breathes out with parted lips. kanan does not doubt what she says, but he does want to touch her more. it was easy when he had his sight, but without it he has this instinct need to investigate what's in front of him.
the force alerts him to a presence, gives him an outline, but the details are lost. all he has of her right now is a dream that doesn't follow the same script their real encounter does. one thing, and the only thing, he wants to take from it is when he ran his hands down her body. find her figure in curve and know where he should touch to make her go wild, because he doesn't want to waste any time. he doesn't have a lot of it to spare.
he can't do much in this position, but he always knows how to make the best of any situation. the hand on her face takes its time to trail down, tips grazing from her cheek to jaw, jaw down the neckline, then ending as he finds her breast again. he cups her breast, pushing up with his palm, and teasing her nipple with the pads of his fingertips. the arm he holds her with urges her to draw further in, steadily pushing himself further inside her, and he breathes out a moan in his meditation. ]
Tell me if it's too much. [ his voice a low whisper to match hers, heavy with heat. ] Tell me if it feels good.
[ he wants to know what to do for next time, and the next times after that if they come. he'll map her out from top to bottom if he must. ]
⟪ terrifying how easy it is to wish to open up to him. there's been a hint of this terror before, earlier, when she'd refused to go into the rain-dark night knowing that there would be no fire to protect her, skirting around her greatest fear. it is back now, but too distant to touch her in the haze, and brushed aside entirely as his fingers search her body. he teases her nipple and she exhales sharp, almost in a whimper, and her fingers curl against his back as she tries to keep steady.
the most certain answer seems to be that she is starved for just about any touch at all. ⟫
Not too much – ⟪ and she does take him fully inside then, breathing out a ragged moan, and a whispered, pleased curse in asshai'i hardly befitting a priestess. ⟫ But in this moment, I can't quite think of a time when I have craved a man's touch so much as I crave yours now.
⟪ her voice is tinged with want, and 'tis no lie. no, certainly there have been such times in her life, but were she to try and picture those occasions in this moment, she'd sorely fail now. and yet he's here, concerned that it may not feel good for her, which is so unlike the ways of asshai that she does not quite know how to respond, and instead, traces the arm that holds her steady, touch light and reassuring.
and then she begins to set a rhythm, and her hands urge him to thrust into her to match. ⟫
[ breathing becomes harder to focus on, to intake and release in pace, when she begins to thrust, his body shaking in the initial moments. though he's no man of purity and chastity, it has been a good while since he had sex. the efforts of the rebellion back home, understandably, occupied his and his partner's minds. for her, the mission was paramount to all other things.
he understands that commitment, its importance, and respects it. in turn, he did not realize how much he missed being touched and fucked until now.
she establishes a rhythm and he follows. his breathing, as well, begins to follow the rhythmn. for each thrust she makes in he inhales a breath and pushes into her. three thrusts after he exhales a breath that becomes an airy moan. he leans into her, clings, burying his face into the crook of her neck and lets his hands roam. down her back, around the curve of her ass, thumbs curving to brush the sides of her chest and still reach for the areolas of her breasts. his mouth plants wet kisses into the joint that connects collar to shoulder, muffling his moans into vibrating hums.
he's close, a lot because of how she prepped him, but he's trying to hold on. they don't need to come at the same time, and he'll let her ride out to her orgasm, but it's a matter of pride to not come yet. not until he's had his fill for the night. ]
⟪ at first, she still notes the pattern to his breathing, the self-control he exerts even now, but the more his hands explore every inch of her, the less can she focus on anything but the feeling of him in her, against her, all around her. melisandre, bless her heart, initially makes an effort to silence her heated moans against his shoulder, but the effort is abandoned soon enough, somewhere between burying a hand in his hair to encourage him to keep his lips to her skin and riding him as though nothing else in the world quite counts.
she is positively sure she could reach completion just like this, but in her daze, she is not unaware that she's pushed him a fair bit as a form of play earlier. so she draws his hand down near to where they are joined, to her clit, where she craves his touch most. ⟫
[ the practiced ritual breathing he has kept in sharp focus this night starts to give away to the intensity of pleasure heating up to a boil in him. his eyes snap wide and another heavy, guttural breath groans out when he feels her move his hand to his clit. there's no second thought, only instinct, to pressing however many fingers he can against it, bluntly rubbing it as she demands.
next time, in the haze of his thoughts, he knows he will lay her down and tread every inch of her body with his mouth. even if it takes all night he will. until then he pulls his mouth away from her flesh and tilts his head up to search for her mouth. he moans into her when he finds them, the tug of his hair exhilarating him as he digs fingers into her hip.
the sharpest sound he has made all night is freed when he feels his body seize inside her, releasing. ]
⟪ she kisses him deeply, until she needs to break for air, the pressure inside of her building up and up as she urges him to drive himself deep into her body. his release comes first, he spills himself inside her and makes a sound by her ear that she wants to hear over and over again.
she is not long for this world after, and when she comes, it's with a cry of his name and her legs locked around him, nails digging into his back in sharp crescent moons, for which she'll ask his forgiveness later. in the here and now, her heart is still racing, her skin still flushed, one hand stilling against his chest, where she can feel his heart beat. leaned against him, still joined, she can feel his chest rise and fall with every breath, and she would, for once, be called content. ⟫
[ as she goes he holds on tight, still thrusting as he rides out his orgasm and pushes for hers. his name rings in his ears, bouncing off the walls of the room, and he moans her name back into her shoulder, arm wrapped around tight as he massages her clit while she finishes. he can feel the stick between them and shudders in discomfort and pleasure all at once.
he slows his thrusts as she does and soon they both still. he lifts his head to press kisses into her neck, lapping her throat up, and then getting to her ear to nibble at the lobe. her breasts pressed against his chest, their heart beats starting to come down at similar rates, he breathes out an exhausted breath as he cradles her and lays his face into her shoulder blade. ]
Mhm. You good? [ he whispers sleepily, body ragged and exhausted even as it thrums in satisfaction. ]
⟪ she makes a content noise against him, the affections remaining unexpected, but... wanted, yes, all the same. the asshai'i are a depraved and pragmatic group, and the red temples preach pleasure and passion, yes, but in context to dedication to god – meaning she ought to settle in to pray right about now. this is not prayer, but the comfort she feels in his arms like this is deeply similar. ⟫
Yes. ⟪ so simple an answer, but there's a warm, happy weight behind it. she does not bother to brush her hair back, and does none of the withdrawing she knows to be more appropriate. instead, she places a kiss to the side of his head she can reach and then gently guides him down beside her onto the bed. ⟫ Are you well?
[ he yawns loud, however right after, no fight in him when he dips down to the mattress on his side. his head spins and turns from bodily high and his eyes fight the urge to rest. for the first time in weeks he feels so relaxed and content and later on he'll evaluate the obvious reasons why. last month took a lot out of him. he hopes this one will treat him better.
even so he touches a hand to his waist, trying to keep her close, not wanting her to go. they're both warm to the touch but as always she's warmer and it isn't so uncomfortable while flush with the heat of sex. ]
Damn. [ he mumbles low, voice on the edge of sleep. ] It's been a while for me. Sorry.
[ the spirit is willing but the flesh is exhausted and done moving tonight. ]
⟪ she only sleeps rarely, when she absolutely must. not that she could not sink into it now, held like this, his steady breathing guiding her down and his warmth a reminder of the protection he'd offered her in the gods wood a few weeks ago.
but where there is sleep, there are dreams, and she does not wish to taint this night with the memories that come as soon as she gives into sleep. ⟫
I had my fair share of pleasure. ⟪ her voice is warm, but a whisper, and she brushes his hair aside, watching him through unblinking eyes. ⟫ And you well-deserve your rest.
[ he smiles, huffing out a pleased breath from his nose. she's always so sweet. he hates that she's had it so rough when she's been nothing but kind. he musters up the energy to lean forward, even when his body urges him not to, and plant a warm kiss on her lips. then he scooches his body up the bed, resting his head on a pillow. the covers are forgotten in the moment. ]
You're a good woman, Mel. [ her name again abbreviated, but this time with intent. he's too tired to get the rest out and he likes how it sounds. ] Rest well too.
[ if he's tired out like this there's no way she can't be. ]
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so he hears her want, her needs, and he's ready to throw himself before her and afraid of doing so. afraid to let someone in this close, knowing once she steps through he would never have it in him to push her out. what if something goes wrong? not in the moment, nothing is wrong now, but what if later. a day, a week, a month - he doesn't want to disappoint anyone and knows it is inevitable.
he snaps back when her nails graze into his skin, out of the trap made in his thoughts, and opens his eyes. he will never see her but she is here, wanting him, and not just tonight. kanan breathes out, lifts up his hand from her chest so that he may cup her face with a warm hand. ]
Are you ready, or should I prepare you?
[ he takes a moment to slowly adjust them together, pushing back to sit a little further up the mattress and bumping his ankles into the post. thinking too much, even if it's in his nature, is distracting him. he wants her too and he will focus on that in the now. ]
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all she knows lies in this moment, and she will not think beyond it. ⟫
I am ready. ⟪ very, very much so, and he can feel just how ready as she adjusts astride him, takes his prick in one hand to guide him to her entrance. as if by way of explanation, if it can be called an explanation with how husky her voice gets, how plain she puts her truth – ⟫ There is not a thing done betweens us here that has not mounted my own pleasure just as it did yours.
⟪ and with that, she begins to take him inside, slow, to offer him, too, time to adjust to the sensation. much as she is aching for him in this moment, she does want to savour it all. ⟫
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the force alerts him to a presence, gives him an outline, but the details are lost. all he has of her right now is a dream that doesn't follow the same script their real encounter does. one thing, and the only thing, he wants to take from it is when he ran his hands down her body. find her figure in curve and know where he should touch to make her go wild, because he doesn't want to waste any time. he doesn't have a lot of it to spare.
he can't do much in this position, but he always knows how to make the best of any situation. the hand on her face takes its time to trail down, tips grazing from her cheek to jaw, jaw down the neckline, then ending as he finds her breast again. he cups her breast, pushing up with his palm, and teasing her nipple with the pads of his fingertips. the arm he holds her with urges her to draw further in, steadily pushing himself further inside her, and he breathes out a moan in his meditation. ]
Tell me if it's too much. [ his voice a low whisper to match hers, heavy with heat. ] Tell me if it feels good.
[ he wants to know what to do for next time, and the next times after that if they come. he'll map her out from top to bottom if he must. ]
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the most certain answer seems to be that she is starved for just about any touch at all. ⟫
Not too much – ⟪ and she does take him fully inside then, breathing out a ragged moan, and a whispered, pleased curse in asshai'i hardly befitting a priestess. ⟫ But in this moment, I can't quite think of a time when I have craved a man's touch so much as I crave yours now.
⟪ her voice is tinged with want, and 'tis no lie. no, certainly there have been such times in her life, but were she to try and picture those occasions in this moment, she'd sorely fail now. and yet he's here, concerned that it may not feel good for her, which is so unlike the ways of asshai that she does not quite know how to respond, and instead, traces the arm that holds her steady, touch light and reassuring.
and then she begins to set a rhythm, and her hands urge him to thrust into her to match. ⟫
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he understands that commitment, its importance, and respects it. in turn, he did not realize how much he missed being touched and fucked until now.
she establishes a rhythm and he follows. his breathing, as well, begins to follow the rhythmn. for each thrust she makes in he inhales a breath and pushes into her. three thrusts after he exhales a breath that becomes an airy moan. he leans into her, clings, burying his face into the crook of her neck and lets his hands roam. down her back, around the curve of her ass, thumbs curving to brush the sides of her chest and still reach for the areolas of her breasts. his mouth plants wet kisses into the joint that connects collar to shoulder, muffling his moans into vibrating hums.
he's close, a lot because of how she prepped him, but he's trying to hold on. they don't need to come at the same time, and he'll let her ride out to her orgasm, but it's a matter of pride to not come yet. not until he's had his fill for the night. ]
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she is positively sure she could reach completion just like this, but in her daze, she is not unaware that she's pushed him a fair bit as a form of play earlier. so she draws his hand down near to where they are joined, to her clit, where she craves his touch most. ⟫
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next time, in the haze of his thoughts, he knows he will lay her down and tread every inch of her body with his mouth. even if it takes all night he will. until then he pulls his mouth away from her flesh and tilts his head up to search for her mouth. he moans into her when he finds them, the tug of his hair exhilarating him as he digs fingers into her hip.
the sharpest sound he has made all night is freed when he feels his body seize inside her, releasing. ]
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she is not long for this world after, and when she comes, it's with a cry of his name and her legs locked around him, nails digging into his back in sharp crescent moons, for which she'll ask his forgiveness later. in the here and now, her heart is still racing, her skin still flushed, one hand stilling against his chest, where she can feel his heart beat. leaned against him, still joined, she can feel his chest rise and fall with every breath, and she would, for once, be called content. ⟫
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he slows his thrusts as she does and soon they both still. he lifts his head to press kisses into her neck, lapping her throat up, and then getting to her ear to nibble at the lobe. her breasts pressed against his chest, their heart beats starting to come down at similar rates, he breathes out an exhausted breath as he cradles her and lays his face into her shoulder blade. ]
Mhm. You good? [ he whispers sleepily, body ragged and exhausted even as it thrums in satisfaction. ]
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Yes. ⟪ so simple an answer, but there's a warm, happy weight behind it. she does not bother to brush her hair back, and does none of the withdrawing she knows to be more appropriate. instead, she places a kiss to the side of his head she can reach and then gently guides him down beside her onto the bed. ⟫ Are you well?
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[ he yawns loud, however right after, no fight in him when he dips down to the mattress on his side. his head spins and turns from bodily high and his eyes fight the urge to rest. for the first time in weeks he feels so relaxed and content and later on he'll evaluate the obvious reasons why. last month took a lot out of him. he hopes this one will treat him better.
even so he touches a hand to his waist, trying to keep her close, not wanting her to go. they're both warm to the touch but as always she's warmer and it isn't so uncomfortable while flush with the heat of sex. ]
Damn. [ he mumbles low, voice on the edge of sleep. ] It's been a while for me. Sorry.
[ the spirit is willing but the flesh is exhausted and done moving tonight. ]
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but where there is sleep, there are dreams, and she does not wish to taint this night with the memories that come as soon as she gives into sleep. ⟫
I had my fair share of pleasure. ⟪ her voice is warm, but a whisper, and she brushes his hair aside, watching him through unblinking eyes. ⟫ And you well-deserve your rest.
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You're a good woman, Mel. [ her name again abbreviated, but this time with intent. he's too tired to get the rest out and he likes how it sounds. ] Rest well too.
[ if he's tired out like this there's no way she can't be. ]